Anxious much… Here’s my biblical xanax for the day.

Therefore I tell you, stop being perpetually uneasy (anxious and worried) about your life, what you shall eat or what you shall drink; or about your body, what you shall put on. Is not life greater [in quality] than food, and the body [far above and more excellent] than clothing? Look at the birds of the air; they neither sow nor reap nor gather into barns, and yet your heavenly Father keeps feeding them. Are you not worth much more than they? And who of you by worrying and being anxious can add one unit of measure (cubit) to his stature or to the span of his life? So do not worry or be anxious about
tomorrow, for tomorrow will have worries and anxieties of its own. Sufficient for each day is its own trouble. (Matthew 6:15, 22, 25-27, 34 AMP)

Bake much?

I made 2 cheese cakes, 1 hazelnut chocolate tart, 1 chocolate dream pie, & 16 individual strawberry cheesecakes (for the kids) all from scratch!!! Pie crust, fresh strawberry topping, fresh whip cream & all. I’m doing it for my friend’s baby shower tomorrow. :) I can get use to this. Looking forward to cooking in Jersey next month! Btw Steph! I just noticed ur working at the cheesecake factory! I’m expecting some hook ups next month. ;)

What to expect being married

5 years down, only God knows how many more years to go. There’s no one marriage out there that is perfect. I used to think that when people got married,it was just 2 people bringing their lives together because they love one another. But I didn’t realize until in recent years that it actually does fuse 2 people into 1. That is if the couple is willing to compromise their differences and begin to really accept that this really is it. Because if there is any other thought but that, its like as if you’re keeping one foot out the door.

I have a friend who lost her love so early in their relationship & also left a son behind. I will never forget that call, it was so unreal, so unnatural. I fell to the floor and cried so hard. I wasn’t even sure what I should say to my friend. I couldn’t imagine losing Oscar. The thought of losing my husband & having a child and pregnant at the time, I triggered a phobia of losing my husband. Once in a while I would have vivid dreams of him dying in a strange way & I would wake up the same everytime. My heart beating like as if it was drowning for air, tears down my face, this heavy unbearable sadness in my chest. Crying hysterically, Oscar would hug me right away saying, “Honey, its only a dream I’m here, I’m here.” I have these dreams atleast once a month.

My point is when you get married expect yourself to have pain if anything ever happened to your significant other. Prepare yourself. Expect a piece of yourself to get lost in the process of finding balance within your lives. Even if it means covering your ears to the outside world and to just listen to 1 thing, your heart. Because that is one thing in this life that will not lie to you. Embrace your differences, you can learn from each other & grow wiser. Fight and discuss issues. Couples who avoid fighting to keep the relationship comfortable only make the tension grow bigger. Most importantly, admit your weaknesses. It’s a big world out there and of course at times you’re going to find other ppl more attractive & appealing. You’re human! If you find yourself crushing on another person or falling into a hole that you know will be hard to climb out of, yell for help! Its a lot easier admitting to them now than after all is said & done. I had to fess up once its not as bad as it seems. I’m glad I did because really we were able to laugh about it and our trust grew. He even teased me about it saying, “Oh, give michael a hug for me.” lol.

Marriage is a career for your heart. Don’t settle just yet. Work hard and keep reaching for that promotion. Then another. Then expand your company, include a 18 year free mentoring benefit, free cafeteria priveledges & free hugs as needed. Have meetings and conference calls everyday. Most of all, show random acts of love everyday. Now thats one sweet merger.